Friday, January 5, 2018 • Friday, January 05, 2018 • 0 comments
If this is really a goodbye between us
Then be it.
Not bcs I want it
But bcs I can’t withstand the sight
Of you that always got abused by me
Mentally.
Sorry
That your first real relationship
Which you thought could lasts
Didn’t.
Sorry
For your 2 years
With a hope that we would end up together
Gone wasted.
Sorry
That the kind you
The sweet you
Got into an unhealthy relationship.
It was never your fault
To begin with
It has always been mine
Eternally.
This is depressing
& it is affecting me
Like how it have always
Affected you.
Pls do live a good life without me. The life you deserved & the life I couldn’t give. Pls do take revenge on me with the intent of destroying my feelings; to pay for all that I’ve done to you. Do hate me, as that’s the kind of thing that I deserve to be living with for the rest of my life; hatred.
Adios.
xoxo, The Shining Star
Idle
Monday, August 14, 2017 • Monday, August 14, 2017 • 0 comments
Hi.
Lama dah tak tulis. So bila aku tulis ni, korang tahu lah kan aku tengah dalam kesedihan sekarang ni kan haha typical azyan. Banyak benda jadi sepanjang beberapa bulan ni. Baik, buruk, bahagia, sedih, semua ada. Tapi kalau nak cerita satu satu payah lah geng. Okay la, maybe aku akan cerita sikit. Tapi bertapis sebab banyak juga mata memerhati ni. Kahkah.
Old love came back. You know, that one. Which has been idle for about two years, contacted me back. Sure that's exciting. But I know my place. I know our situation. No matter how both of us wanted it to happen, it will not. We are different. Not the kind of difference that would complement each other btw lol.
As for now, I'm single but am not available. Nah. Tired for now. I'll just pray for that someone and me to be together in the future once we had fix ourselves. Dah nak dekat dua tahun sama sama, hari hari nampak muka dia minus cuti semester or weekend, tipu lah kalau nak kata hati ni tak sayang. Tipu lah kalau nak kata benda ni senang aku nak hadap. Tapi ni bukan kali pertama aku went through heartbreak. So maybe aku akan kuat walaupun taklah kuat mana. Baru first day single, ada seseorang dah tegur, "senyap je harini. Gaduh dengan boyfriend ke semalam?" Terus tergelak sambil bergenang air mata. Sambil taip ni pun bergenang jugak haha. Aduh tak chill lah genggg.
Aku lupa betapa indahnya bila kau dapat lepaskan perasaan through writing. Aku banyak pendam, susah nak meluah guna perkataan. Kalau orang tanya je aku akan gelak dulu sambil elak itu ini, tepis itu ini, baru nak cerita benda betul. Tapi kalau whatsapp ke dan seangkatan dengannya rancak lah aku sebab menulis gak kan lol.
So tu je kot sepanjang berapa bulan ni. Yang penting bagi aku. Lain tak penting sangat hahaha. Okay dah bye blog. Lagi dua tiga hari maybe kau nampak lah lagi post aku kahkah
Friday, January 5, 2018 • Friday, January 05, 2018 • 0 comments
If this is really a goodbye between us
Then be it.
Not bcs I want it
But bcs I can’t withstand the sight
Of you that always got abused by me
Mentally.
Sorry
That your first real relationship
Which you thought could lasts
Didn’t.
Sorry
For your 2 years
With a hope that we would end up together
Gone wasted.
Sorry
That the kind you
The sweet you
Got into an unhealthy relationship.
It was never your fault
To begin with
It has always been mine
Eternally.
This is depressing
& it is affecting me
Like how it have always
Affected you.
Pls do live a good life without me. The life you deserved & the life I couldn’t give. Pls do take revenge on me with the intent of destroying my feelings; to pay for all that I’ve done to you. Do hate me, as that’s the kind of thing that I deserve to be living with for the rest of my life; hatred.
Adios.
xoxo, The Shining Star
Idle
Monday, August 14, 2017 • Monday, August 14, 2017 • 0 comments
Hi.
Lama dah tak tulis. So bila aku tulis ni, korang tahu lah kan aku tengah dalam kesedihan sekarang ni kan haha typical azyan. Banyak benda jadi sepanjang beberapa bulan ni. Baik, buruk, bahagia, sedih, semua ada. Tapi kalau nak cerita satu satu payah lah geng. Okay la, maybe aku akan cerita sikit. Tapi bertapis sebab banyak juga mata memerhati ni. Kahkah.
Old love came back. You know, that one. Which has been idle for about two years, contacted me back. Sure that's exciting. But I know my place. I know our situation. No matter how both of us wanted it to happen, it will not. We are different. Not the kind of difference that would complement each other btw lol.
As for now, I'm single but am not available. Nah. Tired for now. I'll just pray for that someone and me to be together in the future once we had fix ourselves. Dah nak dekat dua tahun sama sama, hari hari nampak muka dia minus cuti semester or weekend, tipu lah kalau nak kata hati ni tak sayang. Tipu lah kalau nak kata benda ni senang aku nak hadap. Tapi ni bukan kali pertama aku went through heartbreak. So maybe aku akan kuat walaupun taklah kuat mana. Baru first day single, ada seseorang dah tegur, "senyap je harini. Gaduh dengan boyfriend ke semalam?" Terus tergelak sambil bergenang air mata. Sambil taip ni pun bergenang jugak haha. Aduh tak chill lah genggg.
Aku lupa betapa indahnya bila kau dapat lepaskan perasaan through writing. Aku banyak pendam, susah nak meluah guna perkataan. Kalau orang tanya je aku akan gelak dulu sambil elak itu ini, tepis itu ini, baru nak cerita benda betul. Tapi kalau whatsapp ke dan seangkatan dengannya rancak lah aku sebab menulis gak kan lol.
So tu je kot sepanjang berapa bulan ni. Yang penting bagi aku. Lain tak penting sangat hahaha. Okay dah bye blog. Lagi dua tiga hari maybe kau nampak lah lagi post aku kahkah
xoxo, The Shining Star
Te amo
Friday, January 5, 2018 | Friday, January 05, 2018 | 0 comments
If this is really a goodbye between us
Then be it.
Not bcs I want it
But bcs I can’t withstand the sight
Of you that always got abused by me
Mentally.
Sorry
That your first real relationship
Which you thought could lasts
Didn’t.
Sorry
For your 2 years
With a hope that we would end up together
Gone wasted.
Sorry
That the kind you
The sweet you
Got into an unhealthy relationship.
It was never your fault
To begin with
It has always been mine
Eternally.
This is depressing
& it is affecting me
Like how it have always
Affected you.
Pls do live a good life without me. The life you deserved & the life I couldn’t give. Pls do take revenge on me with the intent of destroying my feelings; to pay for all that I’ve done to you. Do hate me, as that’s the kind of thing that I deserve to be living with for the rest of my life; hatred.
Adios.
Idle
Monday, August 14, 2017 | Monday, August 14, 2017 | 0 comments
Hi.
Lama dah tak tulis. So bila aku tulis ni, korang tahu lah kan aku tengah dalam kesedihan sekarang ni kan haha typical azyan. Banyak benda jadi sepanjang beberapa bulan ni. Baik, buruk, bahagia, sedih, semua ada. Tapi kalau nak cerita satu satu payah lah geng. Okay la, maybe aku akan cerita sikit. Tapi bertapis sebab banyak juga mata memerhati ni. Kahkah.
Old love came back. You know, that one. Which has been idle for about two years, contacted me back. Sure that's exciting. But I know my place. I know our situation. No matter how both of us wanted it to happen, it will not. We are different. Not the kind of difference that would complement each other btw lol.
As for now, I'm single but am not available. Nah. Tired for now. I'll just pray for that someone and me to be together in the future once we had fix ourselves. Dah nak dekat dua tahun sama sama, hari hari nampak muka dia minus cuti semester or weekend, tipu lah kalau nak kata hati ni tak sayang. Tipu lah kalau nak kata benda ni senang aku nak hadap. Tapi ni bukan kali pertama aku went through heartbreak. So maybe aku akan kuat walaupun taklah kuat mana. Baru first day single, ada seseorang dah tegur, "senyap je harini. Gaduh dengan boyfriend ke semalam?" Terus tergelak sambil bergenang air mata. Sambil taip ni pun bergenang jugak haha. Aduh tak chill lah genggg.
Aku lupa betapa indahnya bila kau dapat lepaskan perasaan through writing. Aku banyak pendam, susah nak meluah guna perkataan. Kalau orang tanya je aku akan gelak dulu sambil elak itu ini, tepis itu ini, baru nak cerita benda betul. Tapi kalau whatsapp ke dan seangkatan dengannya rancak lah aku sebab menulis gak kan lol.
So tu je kot sepanjang berapa bulan ni. Yang penting bagi aku. Lain tak penting sangat hahaha. Okay dah bye blog. Lagi dua tiga hari maybe kau nampak lah lagi post aku kahkah
