What everyone can see, the smiles and laughter within me. Truthfully, I do get hurt. But, I'm too tired to care. I just let things pass by, and let the time heal. I act normal, simply because 1st) I don't wanna cry bcs of silly things anymore. 2nd) I dont wanna be weak. 3rd) I should be stronger than the opposite gender. Those things like crying and listen to sad songs, being weak, cant accept the fact is how I USED TO BE. I've gone through that all, done it, so I know how foolish I was and that shan't happen, ever again.

Dear teha, you still don't need a guy for you to stand up straight. You can even walk alone, not just standing up. Learn how to let things go. Don't just rot in your room, overthink those feelings you shouldn't be thinking about and cry and get headache and all sorts of pain. Crying only makes you weak. It can't solve your problem.

But you just won't listen. Degil.

Apa nak risau? Jodoh kan rahsia Allah. Dah tercatat kat Luh Mahfuz siapa pasangan kita. Sampai masa, Allah tunjuk siapa dia.