Dat feeling bila bestfriend who was there with me since form 1 asked, "Are you 100% sure you're gonna be fine with akmal again?"
No. Of course I'm not. Bcs we never know what has been planned for us. This might be temporary, but I really want this for my future. Told her that he made me so happy that I can't resist him anymore. Haha, true indeed.
She even reminded me about how "our" banana has fruits so many times. Haha she said she is okay with this, as long as I'm prepared to face anything that might happen in the future. Truthfully, I'm not prepared for any break ups, neither do I expect a broken heart.
But really, come to think of it. I had a very hard time trying to move on. I succeed on that part, but failed on forgetting. What if the same thing happens again, but under different situation and reason? We never know what might fail this relationship. Guess I'll have to cry my heart out and learn how to stand all over again.
I do not want any of that shit to happen. Oh lord
She's, speaking truth and logic. Nope she's not trying to influence me or anything, just to make me think about this more deeply and sane. Using brain, not heart.
Now, give me some space. I need to think.
Not wavering. Just thinking.
Love you babe. x