.Setiap orang mesti akan rasa down. There will come a time when you feel like you no longer deserve to live in this world. Thats the breakdown point. Aku rasa, & masih rasa. But how each of us overcome it, that differs us all. Or should I say, do you even overcome it? It could be possible that you just follow the emotions, leading you to mental disruption & endless loneliness.

Let me tell you this. Boleh nangis. Boleh nak meratapi. But just once in months, and temporarily. I cried so hard, from the evening until night. I got major headache. I felt useless. I felt empty. But the next day when I woke up, I took my bath slowly, I look at my face in the mirror and smile. I told myself, "its gon be tough from now on. but hey, you can do this. you're stronger than what you think." i pat my shoulder, i pat my heart. it does work, really.

Thats it. Thats really it. Its all just about acceptance. Tipulah kalau aku kata lepastu aku terus okay. I'd still think of it, even now, or else I wont be doing this blog post, but I constantly remind myself, "ada hikmahnya." Betul kan? Setiap apa yg jadi pada kita, tak kira kecil atau besar, mesti ada hikmah/pengajaran di sebaliknya. Aku dah dapat pengajarannya, cuma hikmah belum dapat tahu lagi. Takpe, kita percaya pada perancanganNya. Kan Dia sebaik baik perancang?

Fi hifzillah, ya? :)