If I could tell you how I terribly hate myself right now, I would. These obvious, big & ugly flaws I have, are just getting on my nerves. I get mad like every single day, but there is no one to blame. I cry in the morning, wanting to skip school bc I am really embarrassed. I even avoid looking at the mirror. Can you imagine, living like that? Running from your own shadow? Its creeping me out. Seeing the mirror is like facing the real shit. & I aint that brave, aint that strong. 

My bestfriends know, how depressed I am. Well, who wouldn't know if I go to school with red eyes and husky voice. Everytime I talk about it I just cant avoid tears. I shouldn't be stressed out with this thing as my doctor already said I need to have stable hormones & mood. But its not me who wanted to hide in the dark and cry. That's just how things roll.

Yeap.

I lost my confidence.

Dah berangan terlalu tinggi,

Sekali satu apa pun tak jadi, 

Apa lagi,

Terus jatuh menyembah bumi.

Takda orang nak sayang aku dah.